Feelin fine....





Acutally belive it or not Im acutally feeling a lot better than I have been in some time. Those of you who know me to be a moody whiny insicure.... hmm better stop myself now.... anyway those of you who know me well enough know that I never really have a "good" day.

Today though I woke up...acutally thats a lie. I stayed up alll night. I played Halo2 , I drew my drawings, and as those of you who know me know...I thought. You guys know I think waaay too much for my own damn good. I thought about wtf im doing here in Arizona. I thought about those who I miss in that "home" I call Moreno Valley.

I also thought a lot about myself. Im not happy a lot of the time. I can say that with all honesty and many will back me up. Im moody , emotional and depressive easily. Hell, if it werent for all this testostorne I typically waste, I be a female.

I thought why I act like this...why I wasnt happy. IF i was ever happy. And I came to realize this:

To the Techs: The time I spent wieht all of you guys was the happiest time in my life for a long time. That theater, despite all our bullshit drama with each other, the district, the teachers (you guys know which ones), and everything else we had to deal with; you guys were and will always be my real family and that Theater will always be my home.

To friends who have stood beside me (and by extension many techs): Many of you have given me mroe support and love than I deserved. My heart now smiles that you still decdied to befriend a guy like me and stand for and with me when I needed you. I apologize that I didnt do the same for you more often.

To my new friends: Im crazy. But dont worry , you'll find im alright. Your taking a chance in a guy who deserves little and bringing him into your lives... hell I can offer you no greater praise than that

To my sister: I love you Jocelyn. I always have and while ive been a jerk to you, ill always be your big brother and protect you.

To all: Its been quite a ride thusfar.... and its not stoping yet. Im starting something new that few of you would expect from a guy like me and ill let you know how its going. I love you all... and in the words of the immortal Spike Speigiel (anime fans can crusify me later):

Whatever happens, happens.


With love,
Eliseo "DarkSerenade" Aviles Jr.